Eyes

Look deeply into my eyes, read & understand the language that I have gone through too much grieve till no more tears can be shed any longer

First of all, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog as I am now serving the nation as a trainee police officer. Many things transpired & it got me in pain so badly. I was at the edge of renunciation, yet it pulled me back after ruminating things through. " Life is not hard, but the people around you makes it hard. "

At times I tried explicating myself to the positive & in the end, it got intricate. Perhaps, I need someone to be there for me, not just anybody. But that special someone, to accompany my sorrows, the emotions that I will release whenever I can not retain them any longer. At least, I know that someone will make me feel better, keeping me company throughout the course of agony, once thorough.

Well, all this can never happen when I have doubts with men. Do not blame me for my past experiences have make me be more wary of others. You can call me paranoid but I just do not want my heart to be stabbed that I have to eschew all the men, regardless an acquaintance or not.

I just feel like being in the midst of the sky, screaming my lungs out, removing myself away from all the shits that have caused me to be in this unbearable state.

But these feelings can never transpire. And that really brings myself down even more. How I wish that the reality can be like the fantasy.