Book

Your empty mind will wander off while your eyes are so intense, perusing word by word, without knowing what are your surroundings, trying your best to fathom the moral of the story beneath the cover of the mystical book

January has ceased & February has arrived. Here I am at home, with a hollow mind, sprawling in bed, trying to bide with these swelling gums due to the surgery I had undergone last 2 days. They have removed all my wisdom teeth, & now my cheeks are as round as ever. You can tell that I look like a hamster filled with a variety of nuts inside my mouth.

I am hoping that my gums will convalesce soon enough cause I do not want to spend my time, trying to eat my food warily, not wanting to induce pain. I really want to enjoy my time eating happily. The best part is that I can not even smoke or the recuperating process will turn out wrong.

As time ticked slowly, I have been spending my time, perusing this particular book. I can not delineate to you how exquisite the book can be. The way it was depict to be so explicit, it really amazed me. With an inquisitive mind, I can not let my hands off the book, 50 Shades Of Grey. It is a well-known book for bondage. How this literature student, Anastasia Steele changed a successful entrepreneur's life, Christian Grey. As they embark on a passionate love affair.

I am almost done with the book, just half-way there. That is the only diversion from all the tedious time I have to go through, ruminating on the things that will place myself in a perturb situation. For once, I can let myself away just by reading a book, & not stressing myself with the reality.

Being a civil servant is manageable, though mischievous guys here & there will come tease you. I do not want to succumb myself into someone who is amorous. Though their physical features are so hard to let me comply to the rules.

It has been more than a month now I have gone through such activities in the camp, all the perspire quite paid it off. Dramas here & there. Though it was suppressed, one still can never stop being so conspicuous after talking things out. I see it was rather pointless. Now, my main focus is to go through the torment in camp. 4 more months to pass out parade.

Giving myself a sidetrack, I have yet to meet Shane. He told me that he would only be free from March onward. I have been very patient, & I will still continue holding on. Call me tenacious, but nothing can ever turn my decision in the opposite direction. I am doing my very best to prove to him that as time flies way above me, people change, I change.

I understand that he is very hectic with his career, likewise I have my own life to settle. I just want to let myself be wrapped around his arms. I miss his vehement love. Penetrating deeply into his luminous hazel eyes, involuntary feeling secure with his sweet presence. My brother is going through a dating session with someone whom I can define as somewhat charming. Hopefully, that particular guy he is dating with will articulately give him that pure affection he deserves even after knowing his imperfect flaws. Just do not be hasty & make precipitate decision or things will be placed out of hand.

Giving myself the very least anticipation. Only a faint of hope, let this feelings between us develop. No words beneath this breath of mine any longer. Now it is time to wave goodbye. Till we meet again.